Monday, January 07, 2008
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Monday, December 17, 2007
planning to change to blogspot. any recommendation on which blog website should i choose? wordpress?blorc?
*yes i'm dumping blogdrive. so what?*
Posted at 12:13 am by Pearlynsin
Friday, December 07, 2007
if you asked me how i've spent my three months semester break, i would rather say, it has given me experiences and lessons that i never expected to have.
working has already kept myself occupied throughout the first two months, but december has arrived. working and earning moolahs have no longer be my first priority in this end of 2007 month.
when i think back all the decembers i had gone through, it hit me suddenly that i never got myself a satisfying and relaxing break before. every year from the first month untill the novembers, hectic schedules and activities were already planned or arranged in front of my feet. it feels like, there is no way you can run away from them. during my secondary teenagehood, besides than shopping for year-end sales, hanging out with friends at shopping malls during christmas and new year eve countdowns were the only thing i can look for in the month of december. and it has been repeating over and over again.
i'm 19 years old. which is now. yes this month. this year. i really felt something has been embedded inside me, not knowing since when was it. this "something" makes me feel, a feeling of maturity, or should i say, ageing. =) i have no more the excitement and enthusiasm of putting heavy makeups with sexy clothing and heels, and step right into the crowd with spray cans. not to forget, a nostalgic memory of being molested when i celebrated new year eve at sunway pyramid. looking back to that moment, i saw alot (it's fucking alot) of baggy pants and a tube top that slightly able to cover the boobs - people. and also fugly golden/pinky/greenish/bluey hair people that caused me to judge them without even have to think twice. yeah, there's a place filled with all these people - bukit bintang
it feels good to know that i have acknowledge myself i'm no longer in their "categories". instead of squeezing hard myself into the crowd where you can't even enjoy properly with strangers around you, i rather have a cup of hot chocolate, sitting on a rocking chair with a shawl around my shoulder, and a christmas tree with all the presents i bought for myself underneath it. and at the same time, celebrating with love ones in a lovely and warm gathering.
yeap i'm buying myself lots of christmas present this year. december is a really good month to 1) shop for cheap but quality stuffs, 2) make your next year resolutions 3) get together with friend's and family, 4) receive presents 5) go for a holiday trip, 4) do your year end accounts and lastly 5) make a wish and put them in reality no matter what happens.
my first resolution is - lose weight (again) T__T
these were the photos i have taken during my work. which we decorated christmas trees and centerpieces in KL sheraton imperial hotel. and we actually worked in midnights okay!!! no joke.
the highest modern christmas tree. 16th foot high.
the shortest one is 6 foot high only which i decorated by myself. the other one is 9 foot high.
the staircase garlands! i decorated part of it you know!
original copy-right hand-made centerpieces.
ok mom bising d. ishhh.
Posted at 11:46 pm by Pearlynsin
Friday, November 23, 2007
damm la i hate blogdrive now. they need charges if i wanted to have password-protected blog entry.
i came across alot of bloggers (especially wordpress bloggers) had some of their entry password-protected. i have been blogging for a year plus and i never have this thinking of wanting any of my entry to NOT be publicized. cause everything that i wrote in my blog - first thing, if i want to curse somebody, i do hope everyone to know and of course, the person whom im cursing will acknowledge about it. second, i love to let everyone know my life (happy, sad, excitement, love). but when comes to private itsy bitsy stuffs, i only wish certain people to know about it. right now i want to blog something private but i just want certain humans to read it. oh crap. how.
everytime when i have this uneasy feelings towards somebody, be it a stranger or a ten degrees friend who cause me to feel uncomfortable, i will be sooo happy to talk bad behind their back in my blog. but when comes to friends/relatives/buddies/roommates/housemates/colleagues/lecturers, my heart will go small within 0.011 seconds, just like a weak kitten wandering around. its just totally sucks.
i'm sucks in potraying sensitive issues to public, but i really want to complain it to everyone la.haihz
i assummed everyone has encountered this kind of situation. you know, blogging is not just about yourself, it's about publisizing your personal/non-personal life to all the people out there.
if you think i'm a very daring person, erm let's just say you are quarterly wrong! being straight forward is good at times, but after all the experiences that i have gone through, i realized being a human ain't easy. shuddup i don't mean being an animal will be more easier. i think they're worse than us, especially stray animals.
ok a little bit of "philosophy" here. in my opinion, human's are complicated. no matter their thinking, actions, opinions, way of doing things, talking etc. not just they have/need to please others, but in the mean time (especially those who are egoistic), they WANT themselves to be pleased.
opinions are the ones that often be the main cause of a conflict between two or more people. ok, i emphasize this alot because my bf and i always have conflict in opinions. while i was reading xia xue's blog entry (singapore's famous blogger), i learned that what she said was totally right. she said that since opinions can't be changed, because opinons are what a person think of something, there is no point you argue with somebody just to make your opinion's tolerated by him. you can't even force him to say "yes" to your opinions. so why not just please him/her by pretending you agree with his opinions to avoid any further conflicts? yes i agree to this statement but i think it's hard for me to implement it in my relationship. cause i'm a feminist, and also a person that strongly holds to my own thinking and opinions.
alright. back to my story.
whatever problem it is with the person i wish to gossip, yes i'm not gonna give a fuck on that person since that person is my friend/relative/buddy/roommate/housemate/colleague/lecturer. i just heard from the way that person was talking to somebody that intentionally wants me to know that i'm being referred to. for godsake, if you really want to say something bad about me, just throw it to me. why do you have to speak this in purpose in front of me? if not just shuddup and write it in your diary - if you had any problem with me that you wish to complain.
Posted at 3:27 pm by Pearlynsin
Sunday, November 18, 2007
happy 19th birthday sweety.
we met each other when we were in secondary school, and baju kurung was our favorite.
we were just a hi-bye friend when we were in form three. you have your own gang, i have mine.
i was being punished for a week detention due to some disciplinary problem and everyone in the school looked down and me. thank god you and some friends were there for me. i was touched.
i barely remember how our friendship starts but all i knew was we were really compatible in terms of talking crap and gossips when our fate of having the same class began.
we sat next to each other in class, and our "habit" started to be more alike.
monday, tuesday, thursday, and friday were the days we chose to wear baju kurung. wednesday is the only day we most probably will wear pinafores.
both of us were lazy in homework, but super smart in talking. =)
both of us were not just super smart in talking, but super intelligent in talking fast.
and even how fast we talked, we're able to understand each other quickly without a second thought.
since then, we were famous as fast talk buddies in class.
we copied notes with G2 pen. both of us indeed like to write notes in blue ink G2 pen.
i'm popular in wearing "ironless" and "buttonless" baju kurung, and you're famous in wearing "name-tag-keep-dropping" baju kurung.
i missed your maggi goreng, that you cooked for me when i first visited your house in subang jaya, usj11.
oh how i remembered the rumours of you stuffing tissues into your bra to make your boobs look big. but you proved it to me that you didn't by allowing me to touch your boobs.
oh how i remembered you loved to walk around the school with a ponytail and some fringes on your forehead.
oh how i have this memory of you loving to prick people's pimple in public.
oh how i never forget we love to chat with johan, and three of us were really good in crapping.
oh how i love to play around with you in the science lab, that we loved to sit next to each other, gossiping teachers behind their back.
oh how i always flash back the moments we were in library, witnessing cat fights between bernice and shu fen.
oh how i love to recall back we have recess time together in the canteen, and later loafing around in dataran to check out the hottest guy or bitchy girls.
oh how i so so so love to keep in mind we have the same cliche untill we're eighteen, that we learned it from the mean girls' movie. we had watched it for lotsa times and still we think that's the best teenager movie.
oh how we often dwell upon our bitchiness, that some of our friend's talked back behind us. but, we will only tell them, whatever.
oh how i remembered the moments we have our tuition together at kancil tuition centre. it was really fun to see each other again after school.
oh how i remembered that i visited you when you worked in urban & co, that because of you, i'm able to try every dress that i want, and bought myself two dresses with staff price =)
oh how i get to recall back that we worked together at 1u during christmas season, that we played starwars gadgets (we were working to promote ultimate toys).
oh how i adore to keep in mind, that i tried to carry you up on my back during PJ class.
during form five, our friendship got closer. and most of your relationship problems were spilled to me, no matter the private ones or the sad break up ones.
even though how bitter it is for you to end up the relationship with your love ones, how disastrous it is on the night you cried on the phone and told me the bad news, all i wanted to say now, i'm proud of you babe. you're soo much stronger and mature now when dealing with relationships. i'm glad that those pathetic moments of crying over the phone each time a break up happens are completely in a past now.
i like to think back how we studied hard for our exams and spm. and not to forget, how we think smart to run away from disciplinary problems (ok la, i know i always get the most compare to you!) but i just love to make fun all those junior prefect.
but somehow, we got into a big fight (real one!) that we almost agreed to break this friendship, over a guy (which is my bf). forget about how it happened and how we get back on our friendship track cause it doesn't matter anymore, but i'm really glad that we're still friends. that we can forget the unhappy moments and look forward to our secret-sharing chitchats. oh how i love to roll on your bed, and have our pillow talk whenever i'm free to overnight at your house. oh how i appreciate your company when i drove all the way to your house late at night because i fought with my bf. yeah, you had spaghetti with me at the curve, just to let my anger out. thanks for everything.
and lastly, oh how i adore when we bitch about celebrities - we used to gossip lindsay lohan, hillary duff, and paris hilton. yea, and you're always my purple shopping queen friend.
this year would be our fifth year anniversary of our friendship, and also your birthday. happy birthday once again, and may our friendship continue to grow.
oh my my, how i love to do mask with you, that we get to share each other's cosmetics.
i love you shin yee.
p/s: sorry pictures were highly/moderately photoshopped. cause all these were taken few years back (that i looked so not fetch) and now i only realize we have not many pictures taken together now, yet we meet up often. and sorry about the photo quality. we didn't have high tech gadgets to take pictures clearly last time. huhu.
Posted at 11:02 pm by Pearlynsin
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Pictures that have their past.
attention: this gonna be quite a long entry.it will be flooded with pictures and photos. basically you are looking into my computer's photo album. some can't be shown (too ugly) and some are nice to remember. so nice of me to expose it now. so go make some coffee or sandwiches k.
i was randomly looking for that particular picture folder, that contains all the pictures of my earrings. yes, i need to post it up to lelong.com.my to sell it away. suddenly, i realize something.
my pictures and folders were all unorganized!!!!!!!!! that's why i couldn't find it. oh god. i think those folders are all named from New Folder (1) to New Folder (n). (n=the last unkown number). yes i'm happy that it gives me the oppurtunity to look back all the old photos that i've taken while searching for that particular picture folder . some were candids, some were self-camwhores, some were ridiculous, and some were semi-naked (cannot expose this). wtf. and this is the only entry that you're able to see my ugly sides. o.O
and tada!!!! all these pictures strike me all of a sudden to blog about them. since i've been away from my blog so long, so may i shower and flood it with pictures ya!
wait. where's your coffee/milk/milo/orange juice?
where's your sandwiches/roti canai/toast/maggi mee?
or even pop corns and soft drinks? wtf
or that metal thing to korek your ear shit? wtf
ok here it starts.
notice: these photos are not involved in any photo-editing or photoshop.
i've no idea why this picture ended up in my computer. and the main thing is I'm not in the picture!!!!!! anyway those are my ex school mates. the place of this picture is my good buddy's (orange shirt) house. his freaking big bangalo in kota kemuning. obviously they were having fun, celebrating chinese new year. Where was i during that night eh?
i don't know why i have to laugh when i see this picture!!
i swear to God that no one has ever seen my 18th birthday pictures!!! except Johan - cause he's the photographer.
that night, my hair turn out to be sooooo messy and ugly! i went to my aunt's saloon to perm my hair (not digital perm) and i don't know why it will turn out like that! it's so frizzy and tangle up. i tried to use some hardening gel to twist it but in the end it looked like some aunty that just had her steaming machine burst out with flames in the air! Hohohohohoho!!! and look at my makeup! wtfff! my eyebrows were badly shaped, my lips were too red, and why my face so fat??? ok not funny.
to those who came to my party : now you should understand why i never post my 18th birthday pictures up in friendster.
yeala i'm kinda sad that my sweet 18th birthday's photos didn't look great. damm it i defintely have to look great in my 21st birthday's pics.
okay beside me is my friend - ron. he was the one that involves me to a car accident - of course, driven by him. and that accident happened not long before my 18th birthday. i was wearing this dress, with jeans as my bottom - to cover my deeply cut wound.
omgggg. so funny!!!!! now i understand why he "rejected" me!! ok for your information, i had a crush on him last time. we had a fling for quite some time (not couple) but ended up he chose to be the first guy to "reject" me during christmas eve. still, when he came to my birthday party, it was so awkward to see each other. erhem. but whatever, i have a great bf now. huhu. i think i'm over brutally honest to you all lah! why am i so ugly wan.
this is me! having dinner with my bf at kim gary. i think i look nice in this hair la. and this is the photo that my bf keep showing off to his captain and colleagues. and everyone say im chun! *wide smile*
ex classmate gathering! this is how i look when i have superrrr long hair. aint good right? if you don't have natural curl hair, even you got your hair permed to perfect, few months later it will become like this. sad la.
wtf. my bf always get jealous when he sees this picture. but we two look match eh? i think my hair looks nice.. holiday trip at ipoh - juen's hometown.
wavy hair wavy hair!! at juen's house, wearing jia li's colorful necklace.
one thing i hate about my hair is, i have this dead parting. and that parting has been kept from standard one till now! no doubt that my front hairstyle always the same. cause i can't change my hair parting already. teach me howwww to change it. should i shave those dead hair and let it grow back again? so that i can change to whichever side i want. *frowning* you'll notice every picture of me, my parting is always the same.
i have a folder that keeps all the weird photos. such as this:
i grabbed this picture from friendster. she's a philiphino i guess. but what happen to her boobs!!!! where got people's boob so big untill that extent? even pamela anderson can't compete with her. and this!
where got baby so fat untill that extent one! so many layers of fat. i bet he/she was not born out from the hole =S. absolute michelin's ambassador.
this is worse. so kua cheong. *enlarge eyes* that gigantic XXXXXXL bra can cover the whole street, blocking people's traffic.
i think you wouldn't want to see this. this is how ron's car looked like after the accident.
i was sitting in the front and my best friend was sitting at the back. see thos blood smeared on the back seat? what a nightmare. the car was later reported as total loss!
my secondary school class photo!! awwwwww.
my first genting trip with friends!!! my photoshop skills not bad huh. =)
this picture is nice right! i mean the way we pose in front of the mirror in my room. we were grooming ourselves, preparing to go out to celebrate wei wern's birthday at magical theatre.
ok this picture has some editing but i swear it's just the effect being edited! taking picture with my best friend. untill now, she's my darling friend - shin yee, who shares her secret with me always!
i don't understand why i can pose in such a wayyyy! actually i was just trying out this dress in urban and co (shin yee's working place). ok so in the end i bought the dress -_-" but my hair chun right! right right rrrrrrrighttt
wooaaahhhh! see how deep is my wound! notice the blueblack part? can you imagine getting this kind of injury! *nostalgic nostalgic* and my neck part, it was hurt by the seatbelt. the momentum was too high untill it hurt my neck so badly (looks like i was strangled by someone and then got murdered, or i hung myself up with a rope and was luckily saved by a handsome prince in time!) haha. i can be a corpes model already.
i wanted to edit this picture so badly (make myself thin) but i'd already said all the pictures here are not supposed to be edited (because if it's edited, it wouldn't be a memory to remember already). this picture shows that i was fat when i was 17 years old. where can edit all the pictures and later tell everyone that every year i'm a slim and pretty girl one! and most importantly, the bikini was bought at watson for rm15 only! haha. no thanks to the bikini, the padded sponge kept running out when i got myself into the pool. =( and that's johan la. but he's way more fit now as he played tennis starting this year.
guess what? i camwhored this picture. i just don't understand why would i do such pathetic thing when i'm bored.what is this picture about? acting like a shy girl? smile like this to cover my bad breath? what the hell.
trying out my bf's mom's cheongsam. her clothes are 10 times more than me, and still she said they are not enough. next time when i'm a mother, i will be the most fashionable and sexy and hot and cool and gorgeous motherrr!
WHAT THE HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!
what the fuck is this?????? my friend purposely tied my hair into ah lian's hairstyle, and i got so hyperactive after lecture class, and acted cutee!!!! i really look ah lian lahhh!!
what the fuck.to be honest, this is the most ugly picture in my comp.
this picture was taken during my 19th birthday! hoho sooooo far more better than my 18th birthday right!!! i look more pretty than when i was 18 rightttt! wtf
celebrating christmas eve 2006 with my boyfriend's siblings at jalan bukit bintang. so sweet!!
these are two years back i guess. but lately i have been seldom shop for shoes cause 1) vincci no longer produce nice design shoes, 2) i have other interest already, lets say i'm addicted to dresses!
freaking nice right my picture!!!! artistic. i think i'm gonna take up photography course. =) erm these are called *forget what this is called* but whatever it is, my bf's mom made it for me. so sweet right. awwwwwwwww again. =)
my first romantic dinner with my bf at crown mutiara hotel. awwwwwwwww.
the first day i shifted in to cypress condominium in sungai long. again, awwwwww my bed sheet so cute right!
yeap so im in the room. and this is the hairstyle that i first got my hair dyed. why i got so many hairstyle huh.
taken during church service. sooooo dammmm good right my photography skills. *cannot stop praising myself* ok this is our handphone keychain. my bf and i bought it together but the careless girl i am, i lost mine. hopeless me.
what to do. everyone camwhored in forever21 changing room before but i haven't. so i simply grabbed one dress and try - and let the bf wait outside. kena grumbled by him -_-"
forget whether this is a new hairstyle or not. anyway i'm in my condo's living room! looks like a cyber cafe.
ok my frist time to dare myself to perm my hair!!!!! looks great aint i? and now i shall present to you my last memorable picture, which is kinda pathetic.
plucked by my mom!!!!!! HUGE banana! first time i see such fat bananas.
*photo album closed*
p/s: wtf i used up 6 hours to post this blog.
Posted at 8:28 pm by Pearlynsin
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
jeng jeng jeng jeng
i finally grabbed this limited edition 2006 Anna Sui Dolly Girl On the Beach EDT for 45 singapore dollar only!!!!!!!!!! *screams out loud* which is rm103.50 only in malaysia.
the actual price for this product is over rm200 but i managed to grab this little last piece of it that has been in extinction.guess what? it's already discontinued in malaysia. huhu no one can get this price unless you ask for my help heh heh. that's the bargained price i get. (wtf perfume price can be bargained somemore)
next invesetment will be this:
tada! anna sui flight of fancy =) it's rm275 (bloody expensive for that little perfume) but definitely will go hunt for the price in singapore. buy me please T___T
Posted at 10:35 pm by Pearlynsin
Monday, October 22, 2007
I'm starting to dislike my hair, probably it doesn't present the outlook the way i want it to be. Alot of people said that i looked nice in this hair, cos' my hair is thick enough to carry out the weight and it looks nice when it's puffy. Thus, i'm indirectly telling you that if you had thin and flat hair, don't go for this hair cut. cos' it looks nice when it's volumised. But! remember the first day i change to this hairstyle, the actual style is supposed to make it flat, that's what the hairstylist said; i guess the main reason i love myself because i always can be the awkward and outstanding one.wtf
Not long after i cut this hair.
My fringe is supposed to be short and straight, which covers my forehead and my eyebrows.
the latest picture of my hair.
I think i prefer it to be side parted cos forehead hooded hairstyle is making my face fatter and flat. Adrian did told me once that he hated girls with forehead hooded hairstyle but he just as "cute" as always saying something that flatters me alot o.O he said that once he saw my hairstyle, he's amazed that i look good with this haircut!
Ya allah but now i hated it lah. cos' this haircut has changed completely 360 degrees of my outlook personality, which makes me look like a doll. a stiff and statued doll especially when posing pictures - as what my roommate always says.
shit la how. i want to grow back my hair. Long wavy hair. how? but i don't want to do hair extension cos' it's expensive and semi-permanent. most importantly i'm deadly broke now.
i still have sport shoes to invest, anna sui flight of fancy, sasa's world's 24hours lip spa and Juvanex detox kit to buy! how how how!
whoever has any experience in hair extension please tell me! does it hurts? or pain? or looks fake?
i'm so desperately want it to grow long. T_______________________T
i just bought this travel kit not long ago and i thought it would be nice to share this superb product to you all. it's the cellnique Pro-Series Travel kit - which was recommended by Ken - the dutch lady colleague =)
Bought if from Sasa at only rm50.
the pro-series can be used by any skin types. and the best seller product is the sebum gel, which can effectively clear your black and white heads without you pricking it!!!!
the whole range (5 products) costs nearly to rm500 but the products are said to be superbbbbb! and it's 100% money guarantee back within 14days trial! before i invest in this goody stuffs, i was thinking of buying the travel kit to test it.
looks nice right! the three small bottles displayed in front are the cleanser, moisturizer and sunblock. they don't have toner cos' it's already included in the cleanser. =)
i think these two products are the best. the glowing masque and the sebum gel. and they got a free face towel for you. good right.
there will be a roadshow next month - the beginning of november at midvalley. meet you there k!
Posted at 6:25 pm by Pearlynsin
Posted at 4:08 pm by Pearlynsin
Sunday, October 21, 2007
i'm having this super super bimbo feeling that even the world's famous psychologist and counselors couldn't cure it. i'm seeking for help now cos' i think i'm lacking of confidence to face this hard-to-heal feeling, negative thoughts, and emotional disaster.
OVERWEIGHT LARRRRR STUPID!
haihz forgive my this bimbo reaction. cos' i think i'm nearly going to overweight. yeala i know my BMI now is consider normal but i seriously think i'm fat la. how?!!!
i always tell myself, those stupid bulimia and anorexic gals are just downgrading themselves only. and i said if i were that fat, i won't go to that extent to become like them, cos even if i became obese, or severe obese, i still lurve food so much =P
in fact, i hate people who doesn't have self-confidence =(
see la now. what kind of world is this. chefs and cooks keep inventing new foods, bartenders creating new drinks, and fast food owners (eg. McD) manage to invent different kinds of happy meals or burgers so fast like the speed of diarrhoea wtf.
blame those fast food =( cos they provide FAST fooods for busy and lazy people like me. hoooowww!
I DON'T CARE. THIS POST I'M SO GONNA OVER-REACT KAOKAO!
how? kantoi myself la! i couldn't get good and high pay jobs because i'm fat. no one flirts with me becos i'm fat. bf believes that i won't make myself fat becos' he think's i'm so "oi leng" (love to make myself pretty). don't tell me words like "nola, you are not fat, just be who you are" and all these bullshits.
you know what? there is no such thing as natural beautyyyyyyyy! if a guy told you he likes gal with natural beauty, its bullshit okayyyy! Guys, if you think natural beauty is true, go and fuck a gal with untrimmed and bushy eyebrows, blackheads all over her nose, blemishes around her cheeks, cracky lips and not even a drop of foundation makeup la!
even ugly ducklings have to invest in plastic surgeries to make themselves look like they are realllyy natural beauty. but who know's behind their story? so what if she had this so call natural beauty? when time comes, she gets older, do you still consider her as natural beauty? unless you are really falling in love blindly. if yes, go ahead and i wish you all the best k.
i'm having low self-esteem now. should i choose bulimia or anorexic? slimming pills or slimming treatment?
do i look pretty wtf
or this one nicer? wtf
saya rela mati =( ampunkan saya.
Posted at 2:07 am by Pearlynsin